Bezo, I'm sorry You seem to have crashed and burned, but with respect (and not knowing your personal circumstanses), is giving up a hobby that you so obviously love, really the answer mate?
Just a suggestion, but why don't you just carry on drawing?
Sure, you'll have to start from scratch again, but we're all here to support you and help you in any way that we can. It would be such a shame for you to jack in all in, and you would be very much missed
Please stay
Andy.